This month at Calendars.com we’ve committed to find inspiration every day. How do you find inspiration in your daily life? Calendars.com Team Member, Sarah, shares a story about her best day below.
“If I gave the obvious answer I’d say January 25, 2000 and September 8, 2002. Those are the birthdays of my two sons. But, I like to be different so I’ll tell you about my most meaningful day.
The night before this I had received news that a very dear friend of mine had passed away. I was devastated and chose to spend the next day with my grief. As I sat on my back porch in solitude I watched nature go by. I was overwhelmed with sadness over the loss of my friend and unable to contemplate a world in which he didn’t exist. Nothing in life ever fully prepares you to deal with grief and there is nothing you can do but let it happen.
I sat there alone with my grief and so very, very sad. As I wept into my hands I was sure that nothing would ever make this better. Surely nothing could eclipse this awful sadness. Then, I looked up and resting on the railing of my porch were two perfect, blue, dragonflies. I kept perfectly still and watched them for a minute. They were spectacular. They had the most breathtakingly beautiful, perfect, wings. Not a flaw that I could find. Their wings rose and fell with the breeze and it seemed like this moment was made for them.
Suddenly they rose to fly away and I had the opportunity to look around. Everything, as far as I could see, was filled with dragonflies. Hundreds, if not thousands, of dragonflies were flying around my yard, through the creek behind my home, and all around the porch where I was sitting. I was in awe.
Surrounded by my grief one minute and then by breathtaking beauty the next. The dragonfly has always been my thing, it’s guaranteed to bring a smile to my face. So, I sat there on my back porch that day and smiled and then laughed. I stood up and spread my arms and felt them all around me and laughed some more. I thought of my friend, and our friendship, and laughed again.
They eventually left. My grief was still there but it felt a tad more manageable. I had found a bit of joy and in that I realized what would eclipse the sadness. There were many many times over the next few weeks and months that I thought of my friend and would lose my breath because I missed him so much. When I think of him now I still feel sad. I miss him all the time, that never goes away.
But, the beauty that was shown to me that day has always managed to shine through. I will never forget the joy I felt surrounded by those dragonflies. Even today as I type this and miss my friend so much – I still smile and feel the whisper of the dragonfly wings on my cheeks.”
-Sarah F, Calendars.com, 8 years